Seems like there's sadness all around me these days r is it just me?
Can't seem to get rid of not knowing. I need to get my head clear, its
the only way I'll know how I truly feel, but maybe I'm afraid to find
that out. Something is missing and I have a good idea what it is I'm just
to scared to admit r accept it, and its not what u think. I let a
monster in, it was small at first but has grown into something I can't
control and its devouring everyone and everything around me and I don't know
how to stop it. How can I figure out what I feel when there is
something else controling my thoughts? It tells me I'm happy sometimes but
then it will tell me I'm depressed, it tells me I ~ove this person one day
but someone else the next, and sometimes no one at all, not even
myself. I like being alone most of the time, but sometimes I get so lonley.
One thing I do know is that I've yet to accomplish anything in my life
and i keep wasting day after day, I keep
telling myself that tomorrow I will change and start getting my shit
staight but as u know "tomorrow never comes" how many times have I said
"when this is gone that's it I'm done" ? Well its just another day,
tomorrow will be better won t t it? Well that's what I keep thinking, but
when I wake up tomorrow I won't want to face the day cause there seems to
be nothing to get up for, except work.
http://us.f638.mail.yahoo.comlym/ShowLetter?Msgld=7533_36442882_14312_3329_782... 2/25/2008
